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twelveamspeednews.: July 2009
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Wednesday, 29 July 2009. When the dust settles. I'm hit with a sudden pang of loneliness. i was actually having conversations in my head with another person, it won't be long til i start having an imaginary partner. god, i miss the presence of having someone around. you don't have to even look at me, you just have to be there so that i won't saturate into the cold air. How long will this arrangement work til i find myself so lost that i cant stand it anymore? Tuesday, 28 July 2009. Monday, 27 July 2009.
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twelveamspeednews.: when u stop believing?
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Wednesday, 25 August 2010. When u stop believing? I was chatting with a friend earlier this month ; and as we were catching up to life, love in particular I found myself saying this;. 8220;xxxx is a game, we all got to play it”. In capturing the one thing you want, its nothing like this game of chess I’m trying to play now. What had changed me in me? Did I change at all? Maybe I was too contented before, enough to believe that alls good. In this world. Naiveté? Is this really growing up?
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twelveamspeednews.: December 2011
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Tuesday, 20 December 2011. It's been two months, and I'm still feeling antsy. Maybe I should've done this. maybe I should've done that. But in the end, the fact is I still haven't done it yet. I need to move forward soon. the first step is always the hardest, so just get on with it. It's alright, pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep moving. There's nowhere to go to but forward, and u better damn well have courage for it. Keep moving, keep moving. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom).
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twelveamspeednews.: May 2010
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Friday, 14 May 2010. To do beautiful things, a good dy. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). I jot down random memories when I remember. Let's call me J, if you must. View my complete profile. To do beautiful things, a good dy.
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twelveamspeednews.: absence
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Monday, 21 November 2011. Hey there, been a while old friend. I'm feeling lost. 6 months prior, I was having a panic attack, added with denial and self delusion. Glad we're past that stage, but now a new phase comes altogether - the actual dreaded moment, that one that we've been fantasizing, feeding and yet rejecting all this while. So many questions, so little answers. I've been feeling it creeping up, slowly and surely but yet still unable to perceive what it is. It's like a fucken ninja.
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twelveamspeednews.: set ablaze
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Thursday, 4 September 2014. Moving on from one sweet tooth to another, here we are again. Three years on fire, clouded in smoke. that's the price I had to pay. Still, I will never be complete, whole, one again. If only you could see, through the glasses i forged for you all these years,. See what I really am. Then maybe i'll be free. just, maybe. Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I jot down random memories when I remember. Let's call me J, if you must. View my complete profile. Awakening of the senses.
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twelveamspeednews.: March 2010
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Thursday, 11 March 2010. Haven't felt this way for so long, and to be honest, I'm really enjoying it :) though I don't know how things will turn out, I'm keeping my fingers crossed indefinitely. Now I have a secret, do you? Also, going off to le island Paradis. To Li, my love, please don't worry too much. I can't tell u how much I miss you, hang in there allright. I'm always praying for you. Tuesday, 9 March 2010. It's allright if they don't, for that I know what this is :). Monday, 8 March 2010. I know ...
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twelveamspeednews.: November 2009
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Monday, 23 November 2009. So far so good, I'm still standing. Thanks to all my loves, you guys have been indispensible. Soon, I'll be back. There shall be no more words to hear. I'm coming back. :). You are my destination. Monday, 16 November 2009. This is when it becomes hard. crossroads are never easy, but you can't just stand still there. what should i do? Risk this, gain that, or lose this and keep whatever was. Which is a better choice, who do i talk to? What do i want? But it was so worth it :).
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twelveamspeednews.: awakening of the ______ senses
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Thursday, 4 September 2014. Awakening of the senses. A few years ago it came back to me, haunting me to no end. it took me for a year, clawing itself in ever so slowly til it finally takes root. I did not know what you were, or what you wanted from me. I did not know why it took you 16 years to come. I did not know why you came now. But i did learn, in futility, the breaking of my soul, my innocence. I did learn the root of my distrust. I did learn of the walls i built up. And in that, you ruined me.
