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Star Anise: Disappointed
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Wednesday, July 23, 2008. I am feeling low. Very bloated, sore and low. At least I am having an emotion. No one seems to realize that it is actual surgery. Here I am again, focusing on external validation. Why do I care what other people think? I rarely ask for support from people, and when I need it, I never feel like I get it. Obviously it is something I am doing that makes me feel disappointed, but what? July 23, 2008 at 10:05 PM. July 24, 2008 at 8:24 PM. July 25, 2008 at 8:52 AM. The best cloth diap...
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Star Anise: Colour
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Monday, September 15, 2008. My writing has gotten worse, my words don't speak. I think in blog form, and then I sit down and I draw a blank. Lately I am thinking about sinks and doors, paint colours and floors, and I like the shallowness of it. I am tired of thinking too much, and these decisions replace any deep thought. I am on the pill, and it makes my stomach balloon out, and it makes me tired, irritable, and depressed. Or is the pill just an excuse? Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom). I Am Still Here.
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Star Anise: Idling
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Tuesday, July 8, 2008. I am singlehandedly contributing to destroying the earth. It is 40 degrees with the humidex and I am sitting in a running car with the AC on. Anise is napping, there was literally no other way today. I am sorry environment, I just may buy carbon credit for this. The tantrums would still erupt, food would still have to be cooked, house still cleaned. So what seems easy and free about that other lifestyle? Something having to do with order and expectations? July 8, 2008 at 10:46 PM.
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Star Anise: Wrinkles
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Wednesday, September 10, 2008. Why is everything hard for me? I am not the onlt person on earth to have a toddler, other people manage. They look great, cook dinner, and even clean their house! Why am I so hopeless? Why am I so tired? This debilitating fatigue that is here, that makes things so difficult, will it ever go away? Is it something I am not eating? Is it because I am not exercising? Is there something wrong with me? Is it because I am over my ideal weight? Am I doing something wrong? This time...
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OFI/OFO: June 2011
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One Foot In/One Foot Out". Whenever you close a door, someone is sure to knock. Monday, June 13, 2011. I'm expanding staff, but crossing my fingers that I'll be able to keep them employed in a year. Of course, my job is as on-the-line as theirs. Meaning, this is a rather stressful time, knowing I've got work to do, commitments to fulfill, and a very real, somewhat looming expiration date. Monday, June 6, 2011. The fragility of uncertainty. I wait. Three outstanding proposals. I calculate in my mind alter...
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Between the Lines: 7/1/09 - 8/1/09
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Wednesday, July 15, 2009. What gets me writing. There's been one clearly defined reason for why I'm writing in my novel more this year than in all the 10 years past. I'm not writing as much. I am writing more because I'm not writing more. Yup, you're not seeing things incorrectly. Nope, you don't have to read between the lines. Not even here. I spent 10 years as a journalist - writing. I spent two years home, as a freelancer - writing. I spent those same two years blogging - which meant more writing.
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Between the Lines: 1/1/10 - 2/1/10
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Monday, January 18, 2010. Joy is hard when insanely busy. It's a three-day weekend, so I have some "extra" time. Since I began working full-time a little more than a year ago I have struggled more with the issue of time than ever. Mostly because of the "time lost" with my girls. And yet I spend every second with them - when I'm not working. When I was home all the time, I felt no guilt leaving a few hours on the weekends or missing a bedtime here and there. Now Oh, now. Is it guilt? Is it an emptiness?
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Between the Lines: 4/1/09 - 5/1/09
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Monday, April 27, 2009. As my little babies turn, gradually, into little girls, my helicopter parenting skillz are apparent. They've always been exaggerated. We got to the part of the bike trail that overlooks a lovely, but roaring creek and I cringed telling them not to climb on the very large, very high metal fence. A foot could get stuck. They might fit through the two-inch slats. What if they do fall? They'll drown in the knee-deep water. (It was easily a 20-foot drop, by the way). Links to this post.
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Star Anise: 9 Lives
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Tuesday, July 22, 2008. So we have 9 embryos. Nine little potential beings. We find out the results of the PGD on Friday, they day of the transfer. We may get none, we may get a few. Last time. We had 10 embryos, only 2 were normal. But I am not going to speculate on the odds because there is no point in either worrying or getting excited. Ok, that was way too much thinking for me, time to go to sleep. July 23, 2008 at 7:26 PM. July 23, 2008 at 7:47 PM. It was all worth it for Anise! We were lucky, here ...
