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Because someone needs to know: My children
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Because someone needs to know. Tuesday, July 14, 2015. First of all this. Short on empathy. is pretty perfect. I've already posted it on my FB page but, you know, a second look-see wont hurt anyone. So life, right? Have any of you noticed how unbelievably hard it is to keep putting one foot in front of the other? But seriously. if you are one of those sunshine and roses people. And if you're that happy you can take it. So there. Those times are brutal. Today, I sat in a small room, pulling tissues out of...
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Because someone needs to know: November 2014
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Because someone needs to know. Saturday, November 29, 2014. 19 months and 5 days. I didn't realize what a big deal it would be when my rainbow turned one day older than Damon. One day beyond the span of his elder brother's life. I didn't even realize that I knew to the day when that would be. I did I knew. From the moment he turned 19 months old my anxiety ratcheted up about a million points. I just knew that he would disappear. From yesterday on everything is different. It's different. I saw I post the ...
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Because someone needs to know: April 2015
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Because someone needs to know. Sunday, April 26, 2015. There's a C.S. Lewis quote that I've probably posted here many many times. In it he says that no one told him grief felt so much like fear. There is so much fear. It occurred to me last night that the ever present pain now has a close companion. Fear, fear, and more fear. There are the fears you probably expect. There are those fears, then there are these:. I fear conversation. I fear small talk and "how are you? You meet is fighting a hard battle.
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Because someone needs to know: February 2015
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Because someone needs to know. Monday, February 9, 2015. Floating isnt as great as it sounds. I should be studying. I have a test that I'm ridiculously underprepared for in about three hours. I remember feeling like I could protect him. I remember believing in a future. While I am certain that people in general could and should (there's that word I hate but there is no way around it) pull their heads out of themselves and insist on an awareness of the suffering and reality around them I also understand t...
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Because someone needs to know: October 2014
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Because someone needs to know. Friday, October 24, 2014. A sick rainbow and kindness confetti. My rainbow is sick. It's a long, complicated, confusing road to where we are. Essentially, there are multiple components of his immune system that are either deficient or missing. Every day, every breath, every minute. If he was perfectly healthy I would live in terror. He's not. I know he's not. I know his immune system isn't fully equipped to fight pathogens. Aint that just life? There are no words for times ...
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Because someone needs to know: August 2015
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Because someone needs to know. Saturday, August 15, 2015. Tired, sad, and feeling quite sorry for myself. (and apparently pissed. pretty damn pissed). I said to someone recently "It is odd to be so closely aquatinted with terror." We live it, we breathe it, we eat it, some days more than others but still, always. The break is an vast wound that I can't reconcile. On top of that news from his immunologist that he just can't do childcare; its too risky. It's just a virus". I tell myself a lot not to feel s...
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Because someone needs to know: May 2015
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Because someone needs to know. Tuesday, May 12, 2015. I've decided that I'm anti. I'm anti posed perfection. I'm anti cleaning my house because company is coming. I'm anti fake smiles (but all about the real ones). Here's to anti-pretending I have it together and anti-trying to make myself feel better by competing (because that's really what it is). Links to this post. Subscribe to: Posts (Atom). Some of my popular posts. Oy with the poodles already! Where is that white horse? I liked her better. I have ...
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Because someone needs to know: March 2015
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Because someone needs to know. Tuesday, March 24, 2015. Every Second, Every Minute, Every Day. Links to this post. Monday, March 23, 2015. So, I have PTSD. ya'll knew that. I knew that. I had a full on panic attack on Friday but that's the first I've had in months. I can go to the grocery store and restaurants (I even order for myself now). I can even do that really horrible "how are you? I'm not new to this either. I was a single parent through much of my master's work. I put in nearly a full ye...So I'...
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Because someone needs to know: Is it?
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Because someone needs to know. Saturday, June 13, 2015. I've been extra messy lately. The pain is welling up and running over and I never know what to do with it. Sometimes when I'm like this I end up at Hobby Lobby wondering aimlessly through the isles. I often see things like this. I feel as if the jagged, rusted shard of a past life that resides in my chest gets twisted every time. I've never said anything before. I don't want to debate God, or religion, or anything really. But this hurts. My baby die...
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Because someone needs to know: June 2015
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Because someone needs to know. Saturday, June 13, 2015. I've been extra messy lately. The pain is welling up and running over and I never know what to do with it. Sometimes when I'm like this I end up at Hobby Lobby wondering aimlessly through the isles. I often see things like this. I feel as if the jagged, rusted shard of a past life that resides in my chest gets twisted every time. I've never said anything before. I don't want to debate God, or religion, or anything really. But this hurts. My baby die...
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